I am the excruciating sick feeling in my stomach...
All day and most of this night, I've been avoiding talking to people, skipping talk radio, kept from reading sports articles, and definitely staying away from SC. I've been trying to distract myself, listening to music, reading various testing articles for work, and even watching some videos at lunch. I've caught up on practically everyone's blog as of late, and I've run out of stuff to do. So I thought I'd blog...and it's so hard to even write right now. And yes, all of it might seem a little over-dramatic, but if that's the case, then you just don't know me at all; it's real...I just feel absolutely sick because of that damn loss. How can you be up by as much as 24, up by 18 at the half, and....LOSE?!?!??! I know we've done this to other teams, and this time it was our turn, but dude, DUDE!!!!...not supposed to happen to us! I can't remember anything after I watched that lead dwindle down and disappear, and eventually go the opposite direction altogether. ...oh the pain...oh the angst...oh the sickness in my stomach...oh...well...
So all I can do is to try to steer my thoughts away to happier things. And one of those things is the bubs.... This picture just gives me so much hope for her future, just to see her growing up, and...well, kick track booty.
I stole this from Ja's blog. So thanks mang for 1) taking the pic and 2) letting me rip it off, he he he. We're still friends right? Anyway, so the bubs wants to be an Olympic Gold Medalist...how friggin cool is that? I hope she is one one day...I really do. It'll be..wait for it.....AWESOME. Yeah!
Okay, mind straying to that dark abyss yet again...
aaargh, what to think about. what to think about. Drinking? Done way too much of that lately...and to not offset it with my lack of running and working out has most probably given me back a lot of the 15 lbs I worked so hard to lose. Okay...still negative. Something positive. I'll be playing in a basketball tournament next week. Russ turned in our roster for the Nisei Week tournament at Whittier HS next weekend. 3 games in the course of 2 days. I better get my arse in shape a to the s a p! It'll be exciting though...playing some competitive ball...I'm still hurting since that last loss in the playoffs... hmm, playoffs...damnit, here I go again.
Okay, this is my friend jenjen's daughter. She's not even 3 yet and she friggin knows her WORLD geography. I mean, dude, i wouldn't even be able to do that NOW! WTF. I'm just amazed at how smart all of your kids are. It gives me peace of mind that our world is in better hands with kids as smart as these.
What else..what else...oh yeah, to continue the
55 small things you can always do
11. Keep Secrets.
This does not apply to the little tykes...you guys should NOT keep secrets. However, for adults...when people tell you things in confidence, secrets, they are trusting you with said secret. Now the types of secrets people tell you, you really have no control over, and you can opt out by asking them not to tell you if you feel uncomfortable w/ something. But if you acquiesce to someone's request to tell you a secret, you have made your bed, and you should keep the secret to yourself. I know there's a lot of grey area here, but let's just stick to the thought that these secrets won't cause catastrophic damage or anything...man, this one's tough.
of random thoughts
-I need to cut my nails. I bit a few of them last night, and now they're all weird.
-I use the bathroom a lot at work. I drink a lot of water, which is probably why, because usually, I have mad keggle skills. I once held off having to go pee for an entire flight to New Jersey. I had to go at the beginning but just didn't want to get up to go. I know that can be bad...but dude, mad keggle skill right there.
-Damn, working late on a Friday night isn't really my preferred cup of tea - but alas, sometimes you do what you must. Damn TPS reports, he he he.
-I've grown to like Billy Holiday's voice...it used to sound kinda weird...but now it's pretty nice.
"There are no small roles, there are only small actors.
-Unknown
So all I can do is to try to steer my thoughts away to happier things. And one of those things is the bubs.... This picture just gives me so much hope for her future, just to see her growing up, and...well, kick track booty.
I stole this from Ja's blog. So thanks mang for 1) taking the pic and 2) letting me rip it off, he he he. We're still friends right? Anyway, so the bubs wants to be an Olympic Gold Medalist...how friggin cool is that? I hope she is one one day...I really do. It'll be..wait for it.....AWESOME. Yeah!
Okay, mind straying to that dark abyss yet again...
aaargh, what to think about. what to think about. Drinking? Done way too much of that lately...and to not offset it with my lack of running and working out has most probably given me back a lot of the 15 lbs I worked so hard to lose. Okay...still negative. Something positive. I'll be playing in a basketball tournament next week. Russ turned in our roster for the Nisei Week tournament at Whittier HS next weekend. 3 games in the course of 2 days. I better get my arse in shape a to the s a p! It'll be exciting though...playing some competitive ball...I'm still hurting since that last loss in the playoffs... hmm, playoffs...damnit, here I go again.
Okay, this is my friend jenjen's daughter. She's not even 3 yet and she friggin knows her WORLD geography. I mean, dude, i wouldn't even be able to do that NOW! WTF. I'm just amazed at how smart all of your kids are. It gives me peace of mind that our world is in better hands with kids as smart as these.
What else..what else...oh yeah, to continue the
55 small things you can always do
11. Keep Secrets.
This does not apply to the little tykes...you guys should NOT keep secrets. However, for adults...when people tell you things in confidence, secrets, they are trusting you with said secret. Now the types of secrets people tell you, you really have no control over, and you can opt out by asking them not to tell you if you feel uncomfortable w/ something. But if you acquiesce to someone's request to tell you a secret, you have made your bed, and you should keep the secret to yourself. I know there's a lot of grey area here, but let's just stick to the thought that these secrets won't cause catastrophic damage or anything...man, this one's tough.
of random thoughts
-I need to cut my nails. I bit a few of them last night, and now they're all weird.
-I use the bathroom a lot at work. I drink a lot of water, which is probably why, because usually, I have mad keggle skills. I once held off having to go pee for an entire flight to New Jersey. I had to go at the beginning but just didn't want to get up to go. I know that can be bad...but dude, mad keggle skill right there.
-Damn, working late on a Friday night isn't really my preferred cup of tea - but alas, sometimes you do what you must. Damn TPS reports, he he he.
-I've grown to like Billy Holiday's voice...it used to sound kinda weird...but now it's pretty nice.
"There are no small roles, there are only small actors.
-Unknown
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